Detached (18+)
Scruffles' Devlog 8
Sup folks!
I just wanted to preface this all by thanking every single one of you for your support so far. It really means a lot to me that so many folks like my media vomit.
Detached is still very much in progress, but as I'm sure you have noticed, there's been a bit of a slowdown. I've touched on this before, as I am trying to find a balance between IRL work, development, and having a personal life and hobbies. It's a lot, and I love doing all of it.
As many of you know, I also deal with severe mental health issues. I've made this apparent from nearly the beginning. It's not something that I will be going into to much detail about, as a lot of it is incredibly private and scary to me. There is a reason why I write misery as I do.
I've mentioned this before, but this year has been... well, rough. Without getting into too many details, the act of simply existing has been a slog to get through. I've been in the midst of confronting some of these issues, and, well, I feel like an oppressive weight that I never knew was there has been lifted from my shoulders.
This year has been a year of incredibly intense self-reflection and growth, and I've been doing it alone and in my head until very recently. All I can say that I will forever be grateful to Mrs. Scruffles and her incredible support. Without her in general, I can't say that I would come this far.
And now for the meat and potatoes of this post.
While I am still actively chunking out pieces of this update, I feel like I do not deserve your monetary kindness. Not until I find my stride again. I have paused payments on Patreon and Substar until January 3rd.
I just wanted to end this portion of the devlog by thanking you all again, you've been so very incredibly kind to me.
That said, I'm not going anywhere, and neither is Detached. The future of Detached is (somewhat) planned, and I have a clear goal to work towards. This project has singlehandedly restarted my love of the arts, and I refuse to let something as stupid as mental health hold me down for long. I haven't survived this long only to be taken out because I was sad. I ain't no bitch.
The above image is a rough plot map for the story.
Anywhore, feel free to join the Detached Discord. It's quiet, but everyone that participates is super chill. I wouldn't be where I am today with Detached without these amazing people at my back.
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"The battle against mental illness cannot be won decisively. It is a long campaign against an enemy who never tires, whose forces swell to twice their size whenever you look away. Battle against a foe of such magnitude, who occupies your very mind... every moment you survive is a triumph against all odds. There is no more honorable combat."
It's from a meme on... I think I originally saw it on Tumblr - a goofy thing about Star Trek characters that played against type, such as a Betazed tactical officer or (in the above case) a Klingon therapist. But it always stuck with me.
Hopefully it sticks with you too. Anyone worth your time is going to understand what you're going through... some of us understand it on a personal level, even. Take your time, do your thing, and we'll be here, dove. You and your art are worth the wait. <3
There's nothing stupid about mental health. It's the one health that you can't heal. And trying to find ways around it don't make you no bitch. Much love to Mrs. Scruffles for being a pillar in your life.